The shortest month

Life has felt heavy lately. The return to uni and the school year has not panned out the way I planned it. I haven’t been surfing or training, I’ve been struggling with River and I have been living in a state of anxiety. A recurring theme in my life has been the rug being pulled from underneath me; I had subconsciously learned to expect failure, abandonment and things being taken away.

With this realisation I can see how the fear of this happening has kept me stuck lately, and now that I know I can try to change my thought patterns.

There have been a number of challenges/hurdles lately that I am overcoming. Truthfully I am processing anger and hurt due to these. As I’ve grown through the last few years, I have become good at turning things around and learning the lessons though I still find it hard to let go.

I am calling in peace and ease, connection, understanding and abundance. To get there I am going to reduce the noise a bit by removing social media from my phone, prioritising sleep and training, try to work some more and really get back to basics. I’m a routine girly so I know that placement and being on call can really impact my mental health. I will mitigate this by being organised and giving myself permission to rest when I need to.

This week looks like chaos.

Monday - hospital orientation, postpartum doula work (time dependent), Raines class meeting

Tuesday - Raine & Reef swimming carnival, Uni Teams, PT work, study & dance

Wednesday - PT then private practice placement

Thursday - PT, catchup day

Friday - first 12hr hospital shift this year 7am-7.30pm

Saturday - rest day in preparation for a 12hr placement night shift (7pm-7.30am)

Sunday - rest day

I’ll be doing a 20min EMOM today of burpees & pistol squats, snatch & squats on Monday, cardio on Wednesday (pullups, box jumps, bike), deadlifts on Thursday and attempt to surf on Saturday with a big walk on Sunday.

I hope you have a wonderful week and can take some inspiration from my self awareness and realignment xx